Turns and twists

Another cute image of my capuccino´s in Barcelona. It´s good I still keep this. It was my last cappuccino at barcelona. That was on that little but comfi cohee-shop in las ramblas. Nice view, weird music.
I can´t get concentrate here as I used to there. There is not such a place here in Madrid.

I felt more free in Barclona, but I wasn´t. Not in the inside. Iam trapped, but very much free in here now. My house despite being so open and almost in the countryside it feels darker... as dark as my soul was my last days in Barcelona.

I don´t take cofee here, but i don´t take thaitea latte either. I don´t go to starbucks so much. I should not miss it, I should not.
Iam satisfied my life is running faster now. Learning and living too much, and too less and over all, too late.

Destiny has its plan for me, that´s for sure. I still have my two hands tied up at my back, but Iam walking.

I´ll keep going my way now that I have learned how to. Iam still waiting at the end of my own path. myself of years ago, is whishing to catch up with me and welcome all my fears and tears.

I should stop to keep my room so dark as always, the sunny day outside will fade as every day, as every season, and I missed them so much...

As I can´t keep a proper diary, a proper order in my ideas or proyects... i even lost this place I created. I forgot the name, but not the purpose so, it found me again^^ welcome back
Now I have things to show.

I am trying to value my daylight, and Iam little by little succeeding on it. lucky me, lucky me.

I have almost the same feeling I did when I left Madrid years ago. But many things are different. Madrid has changed for me. And I changed for it as well.

I left to grown up, to learn about me, to find things just for me. And I had them. I just wasn´t ready for them. I was afraid to let myself go with the froggy flow, now it can´t touch me. I created my own boat.

I created my own place.

Everyday I feel like singing. Something different. I should practice, I should not fear it.xD
I should I should.... instructing myself.

futile, lady.

I have many things to catch up to with this, so I´ll do it soon.
Enough with the change for now.

mmmmh nice and warm coffee.....