Calm sailing...
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Iam actively letting myself go with the flow. In any meanings. And I think and hope everything goes to a fine port.
I haven´t called you yet. I don´t know what am I gonna say. It´s getting difficult to talk with you these days. Just to me. You would be probably thinking Iam an ass for not calling you since the other day i promesed i would at night.
But I can´t help it. I missed the chance that day and it´s getting more and more difficult, I don´t know why.
As it is recently, I should feel boayant but I don´t. Not really at ease, despite I should. I need more hours a day to do what I want. The inmensity of my own thinking, is overloading me right now. I need to calm down my inestable sailing.
I know it will, I have help to sail my boat, recently. It brings good breeze.
I am on it. And I should´t feel like crying, I should just cry away.
But my hapiness is piling up at someplace. Far inner my heart, waiting to be understood.
Things are happening because they must be the way they are now. I don´t care what´s hidden now behind the black curtains. Iam right beside them.
For once, my own mind is resisting to think too much. I crave for simpleness, trust, and inner peace. And Iam slowly getting it, healing my wounded soul.
Do you know about it?
Opening eyes twice does hurt. But it´s revealing. Getting to know more and more of this person who is me.
Just my body seems restless.
Craving for certainess, pampering, sweet smell, tonight....
I ll write in my dreams...
I haven´t called you yet. I don´t know what am I gonna say. It´s getting difficult to talk with you these days. Just to me. You would be probably thinking Iam an ass for not calling you since the other day i promesed i would at night.
But I can´t help it. I missed the chance that day and it´s getting more and more difficult, I don´t know why.
As it is recently, I should feel boayant but I don´t. Not really at ease, despite I should. I need more hours a day to do what I want. The inmensity of my own thinking, is overloading me right now. I need to calm down my inestable sailing.
I know it will, I have help to sail my boat, recently. It brings good breeze.
I am on it. And I should´t feel like crying, I should just cry away.
But my hapiness is piling up at someplace. Far inner my heart, waiting to be understood.
Things are happening because they must be the way they are now. I don´t care what´s hidden now behind the black curtains. Iam right beside them.
For once, my own mind is resisting to think too much. I crave for simpleness, trust, and inner peace. And Iam slowly getting it, healing my wounded soul.
Do you know about it?
Opening eyes twice does hurt. But it´s revealing. Getting to know more and more of this person who is me.
Just my body seems restless.
Craving for certainess, pampering, sweet smell, tonight....
I ll write in my dreams...
