Crumbling...
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The block grew up in disaster.
Sometimes I think my aspirations are quite stupid. Actually Iam weak.
But even If It wasn´t me the one pushing the brakes, it was needed. It is too soon to start doing some things yet.
Need to solve many things before I walk through my own pace. But I´ll still be there. Whenever it comes, whenever my chance is. Ill be ready.
The path everyone is taking it´s so different from mine. But I realized something, and I think many artist do it as well, to keep their sanity. I don´t like yo be surronded by artist. They are all no good company. And make your eyes go blurry. not living in real life.
These past days I have seen the one you loved. She is beautiful. So beautiful.... pale and tall. Something I will never be. People like her become artists, not me. That´s not thinking, just feeling.
I don´t know if this is all chemical or it´s true, but I hope it doesn´t last. I need my strength to keep moving. And I want it back as soon as possible.
Everithing is changing slowly. But they say slow changes are the ones that last more.
Today I dreamed I missed my class. I thought it was too late... but then the alarm clock bipped. And it was a lot earlier. Just.. i was sick.
I am not sure what it means... maybe that if I don´t do things when I should, later on I might not be able to do it.
I have to keep that in mind. Life is always trying to teach me something important. And I must listen to it. Learn quick.
I always wondered if I have somekind of.. hability. What can I do well. But I´ve never found anything.
My mother says have a leader spitit. But many people hates me for that. But there is something.. I think and everyone else who knows me... think as well.
I learn quickly. I may be not the best. But if I put effort to it, I can learn things quite fast.
I wonder what use can I make of that.
How quick I can really learn something of use. I wonder. And I wonder what it takes. And I wonder If I got it.
Stop wondering at once.
Just keep busy.
=)
Sometimes I think my aspirations are quite stupid. Actually Iam weak.
But even If It wasn´t me the one pushing the brakes, it was needed. It is too soon to start doing some things yet.
Need to solve many things before I walk through my own pace. But I´ll still be there. Whenever it comes, whenever my chance is. Ill be ready.
The path everyone is taking it´s so different from mine. But I realized something, and I think many artist do it as well, to keep their sanity. I don´t like yo be surronded by artist. They are all no good company. And make your eyes go blurry. not living in real life.
These past days I have seen the one you loved. She is beautiful. So beautiful.... pale and tall. Something I will never be. People like her become artists, not me. That´s not thinking, just feeling.
I don´t know if this is all chemical or it´s true, but I hope it doesn´t last. I need my strength to keep moving. And I want it back as soon as possible.
Everithing is changing slowly. But they say slow changes are the ones that last more.
Today I dreamed I missed my class. I thought it was too late... but then the alarm clock bipped. And it was a lot earlier. Just.. i was sick.
I am not sure what it means... maybe that if I don´t do things when I should, later on I might not be able to do it.
I have to keep that in mind. Life is always trying to teach me something important. And I must listen to it. Learn quick.
I always wondered if I have somekind of.. hability. What can I do well. But I´ve never found anything.
My mother says have a leader spitit. But many people hates me for that. But there is something.. I think and everyone else who knows me... think as well.
I learn quickly. I may be not the best. But if I put effort to it, I can learn things quite fast.
I wonder what use can I make of that.
How quick I can really learn something of use. I wonder. And I wonder what it takes. And I wonder If I got it.
Stop wondering at once.
Just keep busy.
=)
