Time to be grateful
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My head hurts endlessly.
Is it guily, is it confusion, what is it?
Or is it a whole?
Destiny is forcing me to go slower. And even if I don´t exactly know how is it , to do that... I must try. I should learn patience. Since that´s not one of my qualities....?
I rememeber that one time when I was so scared I got multiple muscle strokes al over my body. My whole back, my legs, my arms. I couldn´t even sit, or use stairs.
I was afraid of physical pain. But I couldn´t measure, the mind damage I got.
Now.. I wanted to break patterns that are diffcult to change just wanting it. It´s not gonna be that easy, isn´t it?
Just because I decided it , it doesn´t mean that I can just do it.
I should go slower, for some reason. I should put my things in order before. Or I won´t be able to do anything else I want.
Once more I was reminded of my past. I have to get over it. I couldn´t contact with him for some time.... and Iam getting more and more confused each day.
Spiral mind.
Is it guily, is it confusion, what is it?
Or is it a whole?
Destiny is forcing me to go slower. And even if I don´t exactly know how is it , to do that... I must try. I should learn patience. Since that´s not one of my qualities....?
I rememeber that one time when I was so scared I got multiple muscle strokes al over my body. My whole back, my legs, my arms. I couldn´t even sit, or use stairs.
I was afraid of physical pain. But I couldn´t measure, the mind damage I got.
Now.. I wanted to break patterns that are diffcult to change just wanting it. It´s not gonna be that easy, isn´t it?
Just because I decided it , it doesn´t mean that I can just do it.
I should go slower, for some reason. I should put my things in order before. Or I won´t be able to do anything else I want.
Once more I was reminded of my past. I have to get over it. I couldn´t contact with him for some time.... and Iam getting more and more confused each day.
Spiral mind.
